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14 March 2017 @ 03:30 pm
Waiting for it  
Author: archaeologist_d
Title: Waiting for it
Rating: PG
Pairing/s: Merlin/Arthur
Character/s: Merlin
Summary: Merlin sits by the lake and grieves.
Warnings: suicidal thoughts
Word Count: 150
Prompt:#253: My Shot - Hamilton
Author's Notes: Sorry about that! I really need to write some upbeat stuff.:(
Disclaimer: I do not own the BBC version of Merlin; It and Shine do. I am very respectfully borrowing them with no intent to profit. No money has changed hands. No copyright infringement is intended.
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I imagine death so much it feels more like a memory - Hamilton


It's quiet at the lake, but then it always is.

His grief disappearing into the water, the silent anguish pouring out one tear drop at a time, it is as if it were only yesterday, not a millennium ago, that he'd lost everything, that he'd lost him. The agony of it is ever-fresh, tearing into his chest and rending him into bones and blood and pain, but it doesn't matter how much he tries to escape. The memories find him anyway.

Sometimes Merlin wishes for an ending to it all. Sometimes he imagines death so much it feels more like a memory than something he wants so desperately to attain. Poisons, sharp knives, bullets are nothing to him. He'd tried them all and would again.

But for now, all he can do is sit by the lake's edge and watch his tears fall. And hope for grief's end at last.
 
 
Merlsmerlocked18 on March 14th, 2017 07:36 pm (UTC)

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archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on March 14th, 2017 10:20 pm (UTC)
Thanks.
jelly_1andonly1jelly_1andonly1 on March 14th, 2017 09:05 pm (UTC)
Awwwhhhh, my poor baby :(
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on March 14th, 2017 10:20 pm (UTC)
I always feel so terrible for poor Merlin waiting around forever for Arthur. :( Thanks!
Sue White: Wasptari_sue on March 14th, 2017 09:06 pm (UTC)
Oh, this is so sad, so much pain…
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on March 14th, 2017 10:21 pm (UTC)
He was really into keeping Arthur safe and it must have destroyed him to know that he'd failed. Thanks.
ajsrandomajsrandom on March 14th, 2017 09:53 pm (UTC)
Ouch! But good, really good pathos. It can't all be rainbows and unicorns. :)
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on March 14th, 2017 10:22 pm (UTC)
I do like rainbows and unicorns! Glad you liked it.
digthewriter: Camelotdigthewriter on March 14th, 2017 10:03 pm (UTC)
aw, heartbreaking and beautiful.
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on March 14th, 2017 10:22 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much. Glad you liked it.
schweet_heartschweet_heart on March 14th, 2017 10:51 pm (UTC)
Aaah, so sad :( Poor Merlin!
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on March 14th, 2017 11:19 pm (UTC)
I know. I feel so badly for him.
Love Witch: Flower crownlittle_huntress on March 16th, 2017 07:26 am (UTC)
So heartbreaking </3 ♡
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on March 16th, 2017 06:24 pm (UTC)
THanks!
aeris444: arthuraeris444 on August 2nd, 2018 03:28 pm (UTC)
T_T too sad but beautifully written!
archaeologist_darchaeologist_d on August 2nd, 2018 06:37 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much.