Summary: Merlin reflects on the task that awaits him
Word Count: 457
Prompt: #14 Reflection
Author's Notes: So this didn’t turn out as envisioned but I think it says enough *fingers crossed* Apologies for the lame title, but it does fit…oh, and this is the next installment in the Seen and Hidden 'verse
Arthur’s words kept replaying in Merlin’s head. “I know it will have to be someone I can trust with my life”
In the back of his mind, Merlin knew the day would come that he would have to tell Arthur about his magic. And he wanted to, he really did. But he had become used to hiding the truth. His relationship with Arthur was so complicated after all the things they had been through together, Merlin doubted he could predict, with any accuracy, the King’s react to the news. He hoped Arthur’s reaction would show some reflection of the unmistakable bond they shared from the very beginning.
“Wait. Let him go. He may be an idiot, but he is a brave one. There's something about you, Merlin. I can't quite put my finger on it.”
When he first met Arthur, it didn’t take the then Prince long to figure out that he was different. He didn’t know why or how, but he knew. Then Merlin saved his life, with magic no less, and the bond between them became stronger with every day that passed thereafter.
He’d lost count of the number of times he had saved Arthur’s life after that day and the number of time Arthur had done the same for him, even though he was supposed to be just a servant. He doubted Arthur had ever thought of him as just a servant but he still didn’t know the truth of the power Merlin possessed.
The only other time Merlin had seriously contemplated telling Arthur the truth about his magic was when Morgause had allowed Arthur to speak to his mother and he found out the real reason his father didn’t want magic to have a place in Camelot anymore; the selfish reason…
He remembered how angry Arthur had been at Uther and even though Merlin knew if he had not gotten to him and spoken up when he did, as much as it hurt him to do so, Arthur would not be the same person he was today.
Would he ever remind Arthur of the truth about his birth? He wasn’t sure, although maybe some things were best left a secret.
Merlin was sure his magic was not something that was best left a secret. Even though he had been able to hide or cover it up for so long, he knew it would not last forever and he wanted to be able to tell Arthur on his own terms and not have him find out through other means or if he was forced to do magic in front of Arthur before the King knew.
Merlin knew he had to be the one to tell Arthur, no matter how painful the outcome might be.