Title: A Last Chance
Character/s: Merlin, Arthur, Will, Gwen (Mentioned)
Summary: After years of no communication, Merlin finally writes a letter to Arthur.
Warnings: Modern!AU. Angst. History of infidelity-no-strings attached relationship. History of Arthur/Gwen
Word Count: 490
Prompt: EMBRACE for camelot_drabble
Author's Notes: So, like an idiot, I totally didn't read the instructions this whole month that the entries are supposed to be in letter format. So here's one, I hope you like it.
I know that it has been a long time since I've spoken to you and I'm sure you probably don't want anything to do with me. We'd parted ways years ago with little promise to keep in touch. I'm not even sure why I'm writing to you, perhaps, it's because I'm about to embrace a new chapter in my life and I just wished to make amends.
I'm leaving the country for good. I've just received the final papers and will be moving to Toronto, Canada within the next week. It might already be next week by the time you receive this letter.
In any case, I just wanted to apologise for the way things had ended between us. I'm sorry that I didn't take your phone calls or replied to your emails -- and even going as far as changing my email address, but I just needed the space. I know that it wasn't your fault. You had told me from the beginning that you were going to marry her and I still freaked out when it was finalised and announced in the papers.
I knew that I needed to get my head out of my arse and it was a huge wake up call.
I went through a very bad habit of just clichéd alley sex and one offs for several months until I had to get you out of my system. I couldn’t talk to you over the phone, see your pictures, or read your emails during that time.
I'm glad that Will was there for me. As you may be aware, he was the only one who knew of my location and my contact information, and had kept his promise of never sharing them with any of our friends. I did receive messages from Gwaine, Leon, and Percy, but he'd made sure that there weren't any messages about you.
I can only hope that I say this with certainty, that I've got you out of my system. Perhaps, that is why I'm writing to you today. Just to let you know that I'm still alive, I guess, and that I'm finally moving on.
I hope you have a nice life, and that you and Gwen are happy together. I'm not sure if I want to hear anything about adorable children, if you have them, but I hope they are happy and healthy.
I know that you're not supposed to tell me anything about Merlin or pass on any messages from me. This is my final message to you and it is only a response to Merlin's correspondence to me. I'm sure you know that Merlin recently got in touch with me, so I need for him to know this!
Gwen and I split three years ago, only a few short months after our wedding. I still love Merlin. I've always only loved him. I need to see him. Please.
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