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28 June 2016 @ 01:45 pm
In the Wind  
Author: archaeologist_d
Title: In the Wind
Rating: G
Characters: Merlin, Arthur
Summary: Merlin grieves for Arthur.
Warning: major character death
Word Count: 364
Prompt: 217: song prompt #5 classic rock – Dust in the Wind by Kansas
Author's Note: I'm not into music at all so this was much harder than I thought.

It was quiet in the aftermath. Merlin stood there in the mud, the water lapping at his feet, and watched as Arthur's corpse drifted off into the mist.

It was almost as if the world were holding its breath. There was no birdsong, no wind rushing through the trees, nothing but the potential sound of grief bubbling in Merlin's chest, but he refused to let it out, refused to accept what his eyes, his hands, his heart told him.

Arthur was dead.

It had all been for nothing.

Merlin's struggles, the sacrifices he made, the love he bore his pompous clotpoll had come to nothing. Dreams and moments and smiles, the hopes for a future together, a golden age of peace and prosperity and magic now would never be.

Too numb to think, Merlin wasn't sure what to do next. The dragon talked of Arthur's return, but Kilgharrah had lied before and Merlin believed him and look where it had got them all.

Instead, for the longest time, Merlin just stood there, as still as stone, straining for the sound of Arthur's voice. In some part of his mind, he could hear the wind picking up, the noise of squabbling birds, leaves rustling loud above his head, but there was no mockery echoing across the lake, no declarations of cabbageheads or idiots or girl's petticoats, nothing to give Merlin hope.
He had to accept that Arthur's death was not a dream but nightmarish reality.

As his heart began beating - traitorous thing, the wall of grief inside his chest broke free. He wailed out his fury, despair, misery into the air, knowing now and always that he'd never hear that beloved voice again.

Yet Merlin knew he'd remain and wait and hope, for years if necessary. He could not accept that Arthur would never return to him, that all his love and sacrifice had been in vain.

Because if he did, if he admitted that it had all been for naught, it would mean that he was dust, they were all dust in the wind, and in the end, nothing at all.

And that, Merlin would never do. For Arthur's sake – and his own.

Dust in the Wind by Kansas
I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do crumbles to the ground though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Oh, ho, ho
Now, don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
The wind
merlinsdeheune: Soppy Arthurmerlinsdeheune on June 28th, 2016 05:58 pm (UTC)
Heart wrenching...

Its the uncertainty isn't it, that hurts the most? And the blankness.

I almost did something similar to this, but further down the line, using 'Wish You Were Here' by Pink Floyd. Yours is better though. Fresh pain, hope not yet tarnished and all that.

Beautifully written.
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on June 28th, 2016 06:02 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much. Glad you liked it. I can imagine that Merlin would be quite numb and grief-stricken for some time to come.
emrys_mkemrys_mk on June 28th, 2016 06:35 pm (UTC)
Beautiful. My heart broke for Merlin with each word written. Such sorrow and loneliness. But what a treasured memory for Merlin, to have loved and been loved so completely. Alas, memories are never enough.

Major kudos to you for doing this prompt. I couldn't--the song I would have used and the words I would have written were too heartbreaking.
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on June 28th, 2016 09:02 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much. Merlin is always heartbreaking especially that ending. I'll never forgive them for it. Glad you liked it. :D
brunettepetbrunettepet on June 28th, 2016 09:00 pm (UTC)
This really packed an emotional gut punch.
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on June 28th, 2016 09:04 pm (UTC)
Thanks. So glad you liked it.
ajsrandomajsrandom on June 28th, 2016 10:02 pm (UTC)
wow, now I want to curl into a little ball and- not give up hope. Thanks for sharing! :)
archaeologist_d: Merlin Emrysarchaeologist_d on June 29th, 2016 12:22 am (UTC)
Thanks so much. Glad you liked it.